I even find that it’s easier to get up in the morning, instead of pressing snooze button and putting off starting the day.  I now get up as soon as the alarm goes off.  

I’m also able to organise my time so I’m not getting behind with work  and I have more free time to do things that I enjoy!!.

Thanks Nikki, you are a miracle worker!

I’ve had a couple of occasions over the last few weeks where I’ve had to drive people that have never been in a car with me before.  I usually find this stressful because I think that they will criticise my driving, but Iwas amazed that it didn’t bother me.  I’ve also found that I’m less stressed about work and meeting deadlines.

The one thing I haven’t managed to do is cut out wheat from my diet, but I’ve now used up everything in my fridge, freezer and cupboards I’m going to make sure that I’m wheat free to help my eczema.  I’ve tried this in the past and found it really difficult but hopefully with Thought Field Therapy I’ll have more luck this time !!

Thanks Nikki

Looking at the calendar I see it’s been a month since Nikki started on me and nearly 2 weeks since she dealt with my cravings.  What a crazy month it’s been!  Some incredible occassions have come up that would have completely floored me not so long ago but instead I feel stronger and more confident with each one.  It almost makes me search out the next event in order to push myself further!

The weight is still coming off a couple of pounds a week taking it to over a stone since Nikki started and I don’t feel like I’m on a diet.  What’s changed you ask?  Me.  I used to use food to help me feel good, well, I feel good now even when I’m hungry!  I’ve stopped putting food into my mouth, I’ve stopped putting chocolate after chocolate in while sat on the sofa in the evening.  If I do feel like I want chocolate I’ll think about it, consider whether it’s going to achieve my goals and then decide whether I still want it.  Sometimes I do and so I have it.  I surprise myself  frequently because more often than not I don’t actually want it and go and grab a glass of water instead.  I had a mars bar the other week and I actually felt ill afterwards and didn’t feel like touching chocolate for a week after!  I used to obsess about food, I’d make sure I had plenty in the fridge and lots of snacks in the cupboards and maybe some back up meals in case I didn’t fancy what I had planned.  I didn’t always eat what I’d bought but  I’d spent a small fortune on my weekly shop on food that I bought ‘just in case’, now I tend to pop down to the local shop a couple of times a week and just pick up a couple of bits and pieces

I’m still not good at my homework though.  I regularly forget to tap for an entire day or so, but you know what?  Since Nikki came I’ve not had the mood swings or the lethargy.  One day I was emotional and crying for no real reason, so after I’d had a little sob I sat on the side of the bed and started tapping away trying to remember the sequence Nikki used.  Before long I was feeling fine and got on with my day.  A month ago I’d have been weepy and crying for an entire weekend or so!

It really has been an awakening experience and the positive results are continuing every day with very little effort.  I love this new found confidence and it’s so refreshing not to be worried about what others think and just to be able to get on with my day.  Now, where’s that next challenge?!

Thank you so much Nikki.
X

What a week!  Nikki came by last week to clear any remaining baggage and start on some of my cravings.  Only one problem, I was in such a good mood that I found it really hard to concentrate and really didn’t fancy anything I’d normally crave!  It was lovely seeing her again though, and we used the time sort through some baggage that had emerged since the previous session.

This week I’ve had some big events and I’ve breezed through them, in fact I’d say I’ve revelled in them!  Normally I’d have been having sleepless nights and a wobbly tummy over it.  But not now, yes I was anxious but I found it a hundred times easier to calm myself and refocus my mind into positive things and the outcomes of doing it.  I tapped my way through them and came out the other side feeling even more confident in myself and what I can achieve.

Also this week, I managed to meet some new mums at my sons school.  It was the school sports day and normally I’d have clung to a friend for dear life and would have hoped they’d let me tag along with them for the day.  This year I really didn’t care and took the opportunity to meet some new people and chat to them.  I also had a weigh in at my slimming club.  I’ve been good at keeping off the gluten, maybe not so good at following their moderately strict diet, but was feeling confident as I’ve managed to fit into my smaller size jeans.  But I’ve gained a pound!  Well, if I look like I’ve lost a stone but have in fact gained just one pound, I’m thrilled!!  After all, no one’s going to carry a set of scales around with them for me to stand on are they?

Today however I found myself in a really grumpy mood and was lured back to the chocolate and crisps.  I just felt low again for the first time in a couple of weeks, probably since Nikki started.  I can’t think of anything that’s triggered it in particular, I’ve had a good week all in all, but when I mentioned it to Nikki, she asked if I’d done my triangle today.  I’m supposed to do it twice a day.  And well, umm… no.  I hadn’t….

So, my lesson has been learnt.  Remember the tapping!  Nikki’s back tomorrow and then she’ll confront my cravings head on.  She’s told me not to have anything fatty or sugary for 24hrs just so that I’m REALLY craving them when she comes, and she’ll just tap it all away for me.  I’m really looking forward to seeing her again, and I promise to be good next week

G
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Well this weekend has been lovely, there’s been lot’s of love and happiness in the G household.  I’ve been feeling more awake, not necessarily bouncing around the house demanding we all go for long walks or trek across mountain ranges awake, but just alert.  I look in the mirror and it seems as if my eyes are a little bit more open and the bags under them a little bit smaller.

I’ve been cuddling my animals a lot more and my doggy in particular is over the moon with all this new attention he’s been getting.  I’ve always loved my little puppy dog, but he’s rather hairy and has pretty smelly breath, so cuddling him hasn’t really appealed.  But this weekend, I just wanted to give him a good old cuddle and belly tickle, I just wish I could wag my tail too!  Some of my positive mood seems to have rubbed off onto my husband too, I think I’ve had more cuddles and kisses this weekend than I have for the last 6 months all added together.

I have been very good at avoiding the dreaded Diet Coke and have kept completely off wheat and gluten too, even turning my nose up to one of my son’s yum yums.  I haven’t been quite so good with other sugar filled delicacies such as the glorious… I mean erm.. awful chocolate and those creamy meringues….. Nikki… you’re work isn’t finished yet, COME BACK!

G
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Here we are a couple of days after my session with Nikki, I know you’re all just dieing to know what’s changed!

After Nikki left, I relaxed in front of the tv trying not to fall asleep and then as usual went up to check on my son before bed.  I walked into my sons room and started to tuck him in and then just looked at him.  For the first time in his life I felt the most unbelievable feeling of complete love and awe at such an amazing life I created.  Total and complete love and devotion that I’ve not felt before.  I’ve often wondered whether I had a ‘touch’ of post-natal depression after he was born as I felt more like I was going through the motions than just enjoying him being there.  Ticking off boxes… weaned onto solids… check… learning to crawl… check… learning to walk… check… learning to talk… etc. etc.   Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always loved him, I’m incredibly proud of him and how amazing he is, but this feeling I had on that night was so incredibly strong, it had me in tears, tears of joy.

The following day I had some errands to do, so jumped in my car without thinking about it and headed off.  This in itself is rare, I normally plan it like a military procedure.  Then I realised that I had turned the music up, had the windows down and was singing.  Singing at the top of my voice and loving it!  I used to always as a child sing along to music in the car.  Although recently I have, it’s been the quiet mumblings of kinda singing along, but in the car on that day it was full on “appearing live to an A-road near you the fabulous amazing G”!

Then I started crying.  Nikki had warned me I might feel a bit emotional for a couple of days, the release of that much baggage may seem strange.  But I think this was different because I knew why I was crying.  It was because I realised that by damping down all the negative energy and memories for all those years, I’d stopped myself being able to enjoy things too.  By stopping the extremes of my sadness and anger I’d stopped feeling the extremes of love and happiness.  And I’d allowed it for YEARS!

I’ve been coasting along in neutral for far too long, it’s time to have some fun and enthusiasm again.  It’s been far too long since I’ve been genuinely enthusiastic about anything, but it’s starting to come out now, watch out world here I come!

Thanks Nikki xxx

G
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It’s been a day since I saw Nikki.  Firstly I just want to say how lovely she was, I felt like I’d known her for years!  We had a few little chats then we got to work.

She explained that in this session we were going to deal with my baggage, well, the biggest chunks of it anyway.  I didn’t have to tell her what they were, just had to focus really strongly on any one at a time and describe what emotion I was feeling.  For most I’m sure this is easy, but for me after decades of squashing my emotions down so they no longer effect me, this was hard.  What was surprising to me was how much they did (note the past tense) still effect me.  In order for it to work, I had to take myself to the extreme of my emotions, but within seconds of hitting that point, Nikki was tapping away and the emotion would get less despite my attempts at trying to force it higher.  The strangest sensation was when I could feel the waves of negative energy and emotion leaving me or changing to a different emotion.  It wasn’t exactly easy and it did make me feel tired, but not the kind of emotional rawness after a long session of talking through your problems.

She then checked for toxins that I should avoid and it was no surprise to find that wheat was one.  Bye bye yummy baked goods…. Before she left she also went through some basic tapping sequences so that I can align my thingumy’s throughout the day and also avoid those craving attacks.  It was an unusual evening to say the least, but I’ll definitely be giving her another call because now that my baggage is clearer we must be able to work on some of my crazy lady stuff!

To find out how I’ve been feeling since the session check back in a couple of days, I don’t want to make these posts too long, so will save it for another

G
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